Every lines, every words.
Yeah right my angels, as Miss Joanna said.. xD
Don’t mess with me, else they are gonna give you hell.
I’m so looking forward to hearing them say “Good morning, Charlie!” whenever I call them..
Finally bought all four Gundam 00 model kits! I retardedly bought 3 sets this month alone. LOL! When it comes to collecting stuffs, I’m totally hopeless against the urge to buy them all. Thus Exia, Kyrios, Dynames and Virtue are now standing proud on top of my table along with Thrones: Eins, Zwei and Drei! Hehe.. xD
And my fingers hurt like fuck while assembling all of them in three days.
But this is also another sad reflection of a girlfriend-less guy in Kampar obsessed not with girls but mechas which can’t even say “Ahhh…”. Bloody.
I had a fairly gross and disgusting dream the other day when I was taking my sweet afternoon nap.
In my dream, maggots were dropping out from my right big toe infinitely. I somehow plucked off my toe nail and big fat white worms were wriggling in my toe. One by one it dropped out, me using my palm to prevent them from dropping to the floor. I’ve forgotten how the dream ended but one thing for sure I wouldn’t want to experience that again.
That left me with squishy feelings for the following few days. Damn.
Apparently, according to some flimsy dream interpretation website, the dream meant I was focusing too much on the negative aspects of things. Worms, being a symbol of filth and weakness, were used to symnolised the people around me. Why were they under my toe nail, I don’t know.
The following image is gonna gross you out real bad!
Do not scroll down if you just had your meal.
You’ve been warned..
Hehehe. I’m noob in this game.. x)
Kampar really sucked, as expected. No matter how you write it, how fanciful you want your life to be here, the fact remains unchanged. As if looking at the bright side of things help. People are just ignoring the darker side. First week of campus, whole new wave of negativity. Some wasn’t really my concern, some brushed hard against me, and some were just plain idiotic.
There were still some lingering consequences of previous semester to be dealt with. Loose ends to be tied.
Things at home weren’t that good either. Perhaps I’ll be dead long before this short semester ends.
Bad lucks or whatever you call it, can’t be avoided no matter how you tried. The more you try to get away, the more it pours into your life. One thing for sure, I won’t go down without a fight!
Live with the system. Not jumping out of it.
Talking about fight, I added Kyrios and Dynames to my collections of Gundams the other day. Hehe.. Bought Drei during semester break. Now I’ve got a full set of Thrones Gundams Eins, Zwei & Drei. Woohoo! One more Seravee before Gundam 00 is completed! xD *Photos will shown soon enough, wait til I get my hands on some decent camera*
And what follows after this is really me. Something buried a long time ago, with recent circumstances forcing it to re-emerge in my mind. The perfect epitome of what a failure I was.
The perfect reminder for me to study harder smarter now.
Results out. No complaint. No comment. Life still sucks.
Gotta stop the decline.. Gotta stop the decline..
Life can’t go on like this..
To treat others good, is to treat ownself cruelly..
Somehow I can’t seem to find the mood to write anything here on my blog. Plenty of things happened, don’t know where to start writing. The more I dragged on, the more rubbish accumulated.. Ahh shiet! And I forgot most of the things already. Ahh my brain is failing me. Which is good, I suppose?
Escaped Kampar for more than 2 weeks now. Away from the people there, the sinister air, the conflicts.. But I’m not totally clear of it yet. Bloody poisoned to the core.
Sometimes I think it’s not the other’s fault you know. Just that I can’t accept the way things are. Going against my values and beliefs. I guess what they say is true, something about familiarity breeding contempt. The closer you are to people, the more you hate them for being who they are. The more you realise the negative side of people, the more withdrawn you are from them. The missing link I think, is sincerity.
I guess places with the most Cina-Kuis are the most complicated to handle. A place where population is almost 99.9999% Chinese. There’s no love in the air. Always danger lurking, waiting to pounce at you when you let your guards down. There are no exceptions really, just the extend of patience limit you are willing to endure before you snap. Who am I to judge people, you say? I’m my own judge and I stand by my own measures. I’m not being mean, just that your values are not the same level as mine.
Why am I writing all these? I don’t know. HAHA. Maybe the thought of going back to Kampar in a few more days makes me grouchy.
But it wouldn’t be nice to end my post with such negativity, right?
Accomplished much throughout this holiday. Re-applied all my ATM cards and license. Had interview for internship at Universal Team Builder the other day. All went well. Not too shabby, managed to charm the lady interviewing me I guess? Haha. Too bad she said there will be a 2nd interview with the big boss soon. And I’m still waiting for the day. Which she haven’t confirmed with me.
Went shopping with Airin and Zhiyan at Times Square. Became their bag carrying kuli all of a sudden. Went to McDonalds, and Starbucks. Only that I knew what Starbucks is called in Chinese. Xing Xing Ba Ke for fucks sake! ROFL! I don’t know if that’s the correct name or not, but that’s what I heard Airin telling Zhiyan. Went to Pavillion as well. Never been there before I think, or maybe I’ve forgotten about it already hehe. Was so tired from following the 2 girls shopping. I slept til 3pm the next day after that. I’m too old for shopping already.. T-T
Had an eating spree with Calvin and Shihui last night. Fried oysters, Uncle Bob’s, grilled fish, fried si ham.. *Drooling* Went to Tanjung. Watched the oversized Calvin and Shihui playing with swings and slides, before I myself climbed on top of the see-saw they were having fun with. Haha. Kinda wasted time there, had me all sweating from head to toes. But still, meeting up with them is fun.. xD
And in between all these, spent my time hunting mouse, fishing and trapping ghosts in Facebook. And testing my patience with the sucky dial-up at home.
Oh, and result’s about to come out. God bless me. I think I’m gonna get pwn’ed real soon. Hopefully I don’t fail too hard, and of course good luck to those who are anxiously waiting for the results to come out like me.