Warning: This is gonna be an extremely long whining post. Proceed at your own risk. You’ve been warned.
Nothing good ever happened to me this fuckin’ sem. Everything went wrong! From people to things to everything! I know I said I’m not gonna whine about all these anymore, but I can’t stand it. Yeah, there are people out there who probably suffers more than I do. But hey, why me??! Test of faith from thy fucking God?! I don’t believe in Gods and shits like that. I do believe in supernaturals and ghosts.. Not God. Curse me for blasphemy or whatever. Fuck you too. If i were to provide a list of reasons why I don’t believe in God, there would be another fuckin’ page of post.
Seriously, why me?! Have I done anything wrong? Just when I start to think everything is ok again… The perfect world tumbles. Bad luck? My own stupidity? I’m tired of hiding my feelings. Not my feelings for her duh.. My overall feelings. Whatever I don’t like, I keep it to myself. Everything gets bottled up inside me.. When it’s almost full, I rant and rant and rant to someone, anyone I can reach. But none can console me. Who am I supposed to find when I’m in need of comfort? Everybody expects me to settle their shits, but what about myself?! Had there ever been anyone beside me when I needed someone to listen to me? Does anybody even care if I died today? Would you cry for me?
What I need now is less rubbish people in my life. No matter what I do, there are bound to be idiots around me. Can’t anyone let me have my own quiet moment? Whenever I’m feeling moody and tired, this one idiot always appear in front of me. I dread of seeing him. A guy, a damn fucking irritating guy who chirps non-stop like a fucking retarded bird. He talks non-stop, bloody don’t know when to leave people alone, pops up in front of you uninvited. For god’s sake, grow up. Be sensitive to others. Settle your own shits. I’m not your anybody. I’m unrelated to you. You can’t come up to me and expect me to do this and that for you. And I refuse to be any part of your retarded life.
And this sem. Looking back at my previous posts, i couldn’t find any good things that has happened to me. Relationship gone dwindling down the drain, fake people mushrooming everywhere, academic sucks and circle of people I considered friends changed. Do I need to elaborate more? When bad stuffs come at you all at once, what would you feel? I’m overwhelmed. i can’t stand it anymore. I’m tired of all these life’s “challenges”. Can something good happen to me for a change? Nothing goes right. Everything, everyone seems to be against me.
I’m sad… And in need of hugs and love. Comfort me anyone?