Another thing I hate in life is being belittled! Being looked down on by someone, someone less [censored] than you.
Well okay, I may look like those ah-bengswho never study, talk cock 24/7 and speaks loud mandarin, cantonese or hokkien*to those who never really knew me as a person.. But WTF?! Do you think that I not know what is orgasmic?
Fancy me putting some stupid word on MSN’s personal message and I got a barrage of questions from this dude. Already told him I knew what an orgasm is but.. “You sure you using the right word?”, “Explain further, I wanna know”, “Tell me then”..
Okay, this picture can’t explain what is orgasm or whatever.. Just put it for fun -___-!!
Never ever judge me til you have seen my every faces.
ps: No offense to ahbengs out there. The above “ahbeng statement” has nothing to do with any ahbengs, whether dead or alive. Any similarities is purely coincidental only.
If any ahbeng who’s reading this was offended.. Nah, here’s something for you:
Overslept this morning. Missed class. Not my fault though.. Had every intention to go class this morning. If it wasn’t for the morning diarrhea..
Had a power dump that almost broke the toilet bowl in half.. LOL!
I think I’m immune to every feelings now. Incapable of feeling anything except boringness. Just this evening, Priya told me results for Life-Span and Social Pyschology were out. Apparently, I got 90-ish *marks haven’t been verified by myself* for both paper.. No feel. The usual me would have grinned smirkly with deep sense of satisfaction for myself. Not this time, just empty feelings.
Achievements meant nothing if you have nobody to share it with! Digest that!
Couldn’t get myself motivated enough to do my assignments. Staring blindly at the piles of infos left cluttered on my screen..
Yes, the dead fish is back alive and kicking! Still a tinge of sadness though..
We finally sort of patched up. Little bit awkwardness, but it’s ok. It’s been a week plus since I last saw her smiling at me. I swear I saw a glow on her face as she smiled and initiated conversations with me last night. That was the most beautiful moment ever in this gloomy/shitty/whatever one week of mine.
Guess my heart finally felt better after seeing her like this. Stupid me for making her feel down.
And assignments were overwhelming.. Fuck! Only managed to finish 1out of 4 on my part. I wonder what the other group members is doing. Who knows? *shrugs*
Midterm today pwn’d my ass.. Hah! For the first time in UTAR, I have no idea what i wrote on the answer sheet. Didn’t read much. Stayed up whole night but did nothing.
Can’t even concentrate on the fuckin’ paper. My mind kept drifting to her. Can’t help it. Whatever. No feel after the exam.
Slept from 3pm til 9pm. Totally messed up my sleeping time! Had to rush assignments now. Only managed to finish one so far.
Went to her house just now to find Priya.
Saw her in her room. It seems she threw away the CJ7 soft toy I gave her already. No where to be seen. Sad. I can’t even compare my to the Doraemon* on her shelf. Do we really have to end up like this? Sigh.. I’m nobody. Insignificant in her heart. A guy she got tired of after just 7months. Talking to her seems so distant. Like the most familiar stranger..
I’ve tried my best to get back to normal with her. There’s nothing more I can do.
Is it wrong to love somebody? Why can’t she open up her heart to me?
Everytime I see her, I get emo again.. zzZ! So much for staying as friends and bullshits like that. Blah..
Tomorrow’s last midterm paper. Haven’t started reading one bit at all. I’m gonna fail my paper tomorrow. God bless. Honestly, midterm’s a fuckin’ waste of time. Gonna memorise just enough facts to pass the blardy test, and have it chucked out of my head as soon as the test ends.
Maybe I should disappear from the face of the earth. My presence is making the two of us sad. Nobody’s gonna notice me anyway. Problem is, how to disappear?