Black & White

Somehow I can’t seem to find the mood to write anything here on my blog. Plenty of things happened, don’t know where to start writing. The more I dragged on, the more rubbish accumulated.. Ahh shiet! And I forgot most of the things already. Ahh my brain is failing me. Which is good, I suppose?

Escaped Kampar for more than 2 weeks now. Away from the people there, the sinister air, the conflicts.. But I’m not totally clear of it yet. Bloody poisoned to the core.

Sometimes I think it’s not the other’s fault you know. Just that I can’t accept the way things are. Going against my values and beliefs. I guess what they say is true, something about familiarity breeding contempt. The closer you are to people, the more you hate them for being who they are. The more you realise the negative side of people, the more withdrawn you are from them. The missing link I think, is sincerity.

I guess places with the most Cina-Kuis are the most complicated to handle. A place where population is almost 99.9999% Chinese. There’s no love in the air. Always danger lurking, waiting to pounce at you when you let your guards down. There are no exceptions really, just the extend of patience limit you are willing to endure before you snap. Who am I to judge people, you say? I’m my own judge and I stand by my own measures. I’m not being mean, just that your values are not the same level as mine.

Why am I writing all these? I don’t know. HAHA. Maybe the thought of going back to Kampar in a few more days makes me grouchy.

But it wouldn’t be nice to end my post with such negativity, right?

Accomplished much throughout this holiday. Re-applied all my ATM cards and license. Had interview for internship at Universal Team Builder the other day. All went well. Not too shabby, managed to charm the lady interviewing me I guess? Haha. Too bad she said there will be a 2nd interview with the big boss soon. And I’m still waiting for the day. Which she haven’t confirmed with me.

Went shopping with Airin and Zhiyan at Times Square. Became their bag carrying kuli all of a sudden. Went to McDonalds, and Starbucks. Only that I knew what Starbucks is called in Chinese. Xing Xing Ba Ke for fucks sake! ROFL! I don’t know if that’s the correct name or not, but that’s what I heard Airin telling Zhiyan. Went to Pavillion as well. Never been there before I think, or maybe I’ve forgotten about it already hehe. Was so tired from following the 2 girls shopping. I slept til 3pm the next day after that. I’m too old for shopping already.. T-T

Had an eating spree with Calvin and Shihui last night. Fried oysters, Uncle Bob’s, grilled fish, fried si ham.. *Drooling* Went to Tanjung. Watched the oversized Calvin and Shihui playing with swings and slides, before I myself climbed on top of the see-saw they were having fun with. Haha. Kinda wasted time there, had me all sweating from head to toes. But still, meeting up with them is fun.. xD

And in between all these, spent my time hunting mouse, fishing and trapping ghosts in Facebook. And testing my patience with the sucky dial-up at home.

Oh, and result’s about to come out. God bless me. I think I’m gonna get pwn’ed real soon. Hopefully I don’t fail too hard, and of course good luck to those who are anxiously waiting for the results to come out like me.

Always Think, and Rethink!

Life is short, live it well. Short sentence, simple, six words, obvious meaning.

But wait, how’s your life?

Think, act, reflect.

Make decisions wisely, think of the accompanying consequences, look back at what you’ve done.

Do not be tempted by the devil.

Identify the angels and demons in life.

Pleasure, lust, and impulses all lead to destruction of self, and soul.

In between doing a million good things and one bad thing, which would you rather choose? 

Repent and seek forgiveness.

Be grateful for everything.

Live life well.

Aha!

Being single isn’t bad, but being with the wrong person or for the wrong reason is. Exactly my sentiments, but with a little correction. Being single IS bad, but being with the wrong person or for the wrong reason is even WORSE. Having funny feelings that some higher-power dudes up above are illuminating my ways everytime I’m in doubts. Every now and then, I can see subtle hints of reassurance to my own thinkings or solutions to my troubles in every unimaginable ways possible. This time it’s a MSN’s pm from somebody in my contact list.

Cleared up my senses in the process. Now, I’m finally sure of what I want and don’t want. Should be feeling relieved now I guess.. =)

Seven Deadly Sins

Did you guys notice my new blog header and wondered what it’s all about? Guess what each of them represents? Our seven deadly sins, our capital vices. From left to right: Pride, Envy, Gluttony, Wrath, Sloth, Greed and Lust. All of which I’m guilty of, at various points of my life. Not all at once of course! Which makes the header apt for my new blog layout. Look out for future posts that will be categorised according to these seven sins. Haha.

Now, I’m not religious or anything. Heck I don’t even know who’s who up above. But all these, in my opinion are suitable for everyone regardless of which God people look up to. Disagree? GTFO.. =)

Pride: Vanity. The desire to be more important or attractive than others, excessive love of self. Camwhoring doesn’t count I guess. Hopefully God doesn’t have a Facebook or Friendster account, else I’m fried =S

Envy: Jealousy. Sort of, resenting others who have something we lack of. Who doesn’t feel anything when others drive BMW to campus, while we cycled everyday regardless of the friggin’ sun? Or the hot girlfriend some monkey-ass face is holding hands with? *Oopsie*

Gluttony: Latin gluttire, meaning to gulp down or swallow. Over-consumption of anything to the point of waste. Hey, it’s not wasting right if it’s in our stomach? Ice-cream, cookies, chocolates, sweets etc.. Oh wait, everybody just sinned during exam periods! xD

Wrath: Rage ftw! Good thing I channeled my wrath and anger towards DotA. Flaming and killing people over some online playing game doesn’t account to full version of wrath righty? Okay, I admit going overboard when I get angry last time. But I’ve changed, heart crossed..

Sloth: Laziness. No explanation needed. My no.1 sin..

Greed: Similar to envy and lust, but greed is more towards materialistic stuffs. One can never have enough of anything. Money, money, money.. $_$ And I particularly like one phrase. Luxury, once sampled, becomes necessity.

Lust: Hamsap. Watching prawns and having vivid imaginations of ahem ahem. Hey, we’re all designed like this, genetically inherited for the survival of human species. And who doesn’t fantasize about their lady teacher during school times, hands up? Not to the extend of raping la doink.

Come to think of it, this isn’t just me. It’s time to change/update/upgrade the Seven Sins to fit our current society. Something which everybody DON’T commit on a daily basis, and comes with hyped up notoriety. Something bad-ass, something which makes us all scared, something like Fattiness, Penniless, Ugliness, Kiasu-ism, WMD-ism, Fetish, and Noob-ism.

My own version of Seven Not-To-Be Categories.. xD

Martians?

People would pay GAZILLIONS just to get into the mind of girls for 1 minute!

Ex-housemate, GB told me how he offended a girl in his class just because he introduced the girl to his housemates. JUST. And the girl wanted it at the first place. Now she said it makes her look damn desperate wtf. You disturb one hen in the coop, every other hens go crazy! Now he offended the WHOLE group of girls from his class. Epic LOL. I shouldn’t have laughed at him at the first place, cause I got the same thing 15minutes after he told me his “ordeal”. Karma, I tell ya.. It’s karma.. =S

Mine weren’t so outrageous as his. But still, it got me scratching my head over and over again.

And Facebook just got hit by my obscenities. I got frustrated with myself for not knowing what’s going on when I can clearly see something’s wrong.. =.=||

If I were to choose which character from Heroes I am, I would go for Gabriel; for his hunger for knowing how things work. Like how it would kill him to not know what’s going on in people’s head. Now, can I crack open people’s forehead to see what’s inside?