Yeah right my angels, as Miss Joanna said.. xD
Don’t mess with me, else they are gonna give you hell.
I’m so looking forward to hearing them say “Good morning, Charlie!” whenever I call them..
*Evil laughter*
Kampar really sucked, as expected. No matter how you write it, how fanciful you want your life to be here, the fact remains unchanged. As if looking at the bright side of things help. People are just ignoring the darker side. First week of campus, whole new wave of negativity. Some wasn’t really my concern, some brushed hard against me, and some were just plain idiotic.
There were still some lingering consequences of previous semester to be dealt with. Loose ends to be tied.
Things at home weren’t that good either. Perhaps I’ll be dead long before this short semester ends.
Bad lucks or whatever you call it, can’t be avoided no matter how you tried. The more you try to get away, the more it pours into your life. One thing for sure, I won’t go down without a fight!
Live with the system. Not jumping out of it.
Talking about fight, I added Kyrios and Dynames to my collections of Gundams the other day. Hehe.. Bought Drei during semester break. Now I’ve got a full set of Thrones Gundams Eins, Zwei & Drei. Woohoo! One more Seravee before Gundam 00 is completed! xD *Photos will shown soon enough, wait til I get my hands on some decent camera*
And what follows after this is really me. Something buried a long time ago, with recent circumstances forcing it to re-emerge in my mind. The perfect epitome of what a failure I was.
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The perfect reminder for me to study harder smarter now.
Results out. No complaint. No comment. Life still sucks.
Gotta stop the decline.. Gotta stop the decline..
Life can’t go on like this..
To treat others good, is to treat ownself cruelly..
Unbreakable peace..?
Abstinence?
Somehow I can’t seem to find the mood to write anything here on my blog. Plenty of things happened, don’t know where to start writing. The more I dragged on, the more rubbish accumulated.. Ahh shiet! And I forgot most of the things already. Ahh my brain is failing me. Which is good, I suppose?
Escaped Kampar for more than 2 weeks now. Away from the people there, the sinister air, the conflicts.. But I’m not totally clear of it yet. Bloody poisoned to the core.
Sometimes I think it’s not the other’s fault you know. Just that I can’t accept the way things are. Going against my values and beliefs. I guess what they say is true, something about familiarity breeding contempt. The closer you are to people, the more you hate them for being who they are. The more you realise the negative side of people, the more withdrawn you are from them. The missing link I think, is sincerity.
I guess places with the most Cina-Kuis are the most complicated to handle. A place where population is almost 99.9999% Chinese. There’s no love in the air. Always danger lurking, waiting to pounce at you when you let your guards down. There are no exceptions really, just the extend of patience limit you are willing to endure before you snap. Who am I to judge people, you say? I’m my own judge and I stand by my own measures. I’m not being mean, just that your values are not the same level as mine.
Why am I writing all these? I don’t know. HAHA. Maybe the thought of going back to Kampar in a few more days makes me grouchy.
But it wouldn’t be nice to end my post with such negativity, right?
Accomplished much throughout this holiday. Re-applied all my ATM cards and license. Had interview for internship at Universal Team Builder the other day. All went well. Not too shabby, managed to charm the lady interviewing me I guess? Haha. Too bad she said there will be a 2nd interview with the big boss soon. And I’m still waiting for the day. Which she haven’t confirmed with me.
Went shopping with Airin and Zhiyan at Times Square. Became their bag carrying kuli all of a sudden. Went to McDonalds, and Starbucks. Only that I knew what Starbucks is called in Chinese. Xing Xing Ba Ke for fucks sake! ROFL! I don’t know if that’s the correct name or not, but that’s what I heard Airin telling Zhiyan. Went to Pavillion as well. Never been there before I think, or maybe I’ve forgotten about it already hehe. Was so tired from following the 2 girls shopping. I slept til 3pm the next day after that. I’m too old for shopping already.. T-T
Had an eating spree with Calvin and Shihui last night. Fried oysters, Uncle Bob’s, grilled fish, fried si ham.. *Drooling* Went to Tanjung. Watched the oversized Calvin and Shihui playing with swings and slides, before I myself climbed on top of the see-saw they were having fun with. Haha. Kinda wasted time there, had me all sweating from head to toes. But still, meeting up with them is fun.. xD
And in between all these, spent my time hunting mouse, fishing and trapping ghosts in Facebook. And testing my patience with the sucky dial-up at home.
Oh, and result’s about to come out. God bless me. I think I’m gonna get pwn’ed real soon. Hopefully I don’t fail too hard, and of course good luck to those who are anxiously waiting for the results to come out like me.
I’ve kept lots of things to myself lately. Except for a few blurbs to a few dearest close ones. Got really demotivated these days. Skipped through classes for whole day at a stretch, stayed awake whole night long for god-knows why. Sleeping at times I shouldn’t be. Neglecting everything. Didn’t really put any focus on assignments, lazy to put up with people’s attitudes. Just freakin’ ignored everybody. Pretending like nothing’s ever happen. Pretending’s the only thing I’m good at with them now anyway.
When I keep quiet, people tend to climb over my head. The two and a half bitches bridage are at it again lately. Sometimes I’m really amazed by their level of intelligence, or stupidity whichever way you want to put it. Giving pure nonsense as reasons and excuses. I wonder if those stuffs came out from her mouth or pussy. But to make one thing clear, it is me ignoring you bitches now. Not the other way round. My feelings for you dropped to negative ever since the day I got myself bald. Just playing along with your bitchiness till I decided that’s it, can’t take it no more.. =)
Things are so complicated I don’t know where to start. From the moment those bitches started screaming at me? From the moment I knew she was just “testing her power” on me? Or from the moment she betrayed my trust and started being a double headed snake, being the “nice one” for both sides? Whatever it is, things got to this state finally.
And she thought I was being angry at her for choosing sides. LOL.. One thing for sure, others were just minor characters not deserving my attentions. Manipulate your two and a half bitches brigade all you want. At least some still know the truth.. =)
Great.. One week hiatus from my blog and this is all I posted.. =S
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